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by **My Road To Healing** » Mon Aug 02, 2010

Hello, I have been following your journals, you are doing great things...it will be our turn one day to have babies. What did the gyne think? Have you tried clearblue ovulation monitor, it might make things easier. I am going to start using it this month.

by **Juju** » Wed Aug 04, 2010

I use opk's but I have mixed results. I like using the temp. I have ovulated as early as CD 12 and as late as CD18 so I start having sex Cd 10 and do it everyday through Cd 18 or a temp dip and rise. I am so tired of sex though man... hahahahaa! I hope you get pregnant soon. How frustrating! it's 4 days past ovulation for me today.

Juju

by **cowgirlchick** » Thu Aug 05, 2010

MRTH~ THANK YOU!! Im certainly trying everything I think will benefit my abilities to conceive. Im trying to stay positive that Ill get pregnant....hopefully more sooner than later! Ive been tested for everything under the sun; all results were normal. My OB isnt quite surehow to proceed at this point...I ovulate, so no clomid, I can GET pregnant (sometimes) so IUI and IVF are out. Its a matter of "wait and see". I will need to be perscribed progesterone immediately if I ever get a BFP. Hopefully that will finally help sustain a pregnancy to term. Im actually considering the Clear Blue monitor. I know its kinda spendy, so I wanna use that as a last resort, but Ive been TTC for 20 months now. The monitor may be something I need to invest in. Do you have any experience with them??

JuJu~ I actually have some GREAT news: my temp was just screwy the day it peaked; the next day it dropped back to normal range! I DIDNT ovulate early! WHOOHOO! I had to see my OB on CD 14, and she said my cervix was super high, soft and very open! She sent me home with a handful of OPKs, which I usually HATE because they are sooo hard to interpret. I used on on CD 14, negative. CD 15 I got two very dark positives! CD 16, I got a FREAKY dark positive in the morning, followed by some left ovarian pains which lasted apporximately 10 mins. Later that afternoon, my OPK was negative! I had ovulated on CD 16! YEEHAW!! I am 1 DPO today! I got some BDing in before I ovulated, so I am PRAYING I caught that eggie!! GOOD LUCK TO YOU!! Im sending BABY DUST your way!! When will be be able to test? Im going to start August 17th or so...If I can control my POAS addiction that long!!

by **cowgirlchick** » Fri Aug 06, 2010

Well, so much for my "great news"....today, CD 18 and supposedly 2 DPO, I randomly just for fun took an OPK test...POSITIVE. I STILL HAVENT OVULATED! My husband refuses to "do his part", so Im out....AGAIN. Im done. I can't take this kind of pain anymore. I finally, after 20 long, painful, disappointing months, broke down and sobbed. I told my husband how much I hated TTC, how much I hate myself for not being able to get or stay pregnant, how much pain, misery and anguish I have tried to cheerfully hide for 20 months. I cant do it anymore. It hurts too much to have month after month of disappointment. Im done trying. Im going to call my OB next cycle after AF and begin the talks of a tubal ligation. I think it will finally help put a stop to my hurting. At least then I will no longer have to stress each month as to when Im fertile, if Im ovulating, when we have to BD,if we caught the egg, blah blah blah...I just cant.

by **KBL** » Wed Aug 11, 2010

Aw...I am so sorry you are having such a struggle with this.
Those OPK's can be very confusing sometimes. I had one time where I had 4 very positive ones in a row. I gave those up and opted for checking saliva for ferning.
I have a friend that just had her tubal reversed this week. Give your decision some time, because it is very hard (not to mention expensive and painful)to undo. You may regret it every month that you do not even have a chance at conception (especially as you really want a baby). I understand that this road is long and hard as we have been badly wanting since 2007. They say it will all be worth it once our day comes.
Anyway, I pray that you find comfort and that you find an approach that works for you so you don't swing really high and then very low emotionally every month. Some take the 'if it happens, it happens' approach and it works for them. I try it sometimes, but I have to at least keep track and then adopt a 'we shall see' attitude. I try not to let myself get too excited because then the letdown is harder. Perhaps you can put your focus on getting your body ready for when it happens instead of it happening.
Hang in there!

by **cowgirlchick** » Wed Aug 11, 2010

KBL~
Thank you very much for your kind words. This whole TTC road is jjust getting too bumpy anymore. I can say this....NO MORE OPKs FOR ME! They are nothing but grief! On top of the OPKs, I also have been charting for over a year and using a saliva microscope. According to FertilityFriend, I DID in fact ovulate on CD 16, as I originally thought I did. of course, there is always the possibility my temps were off and the stupid OPK was right. Soooo, according to FertilityFriend, I am 7 DPO and can start testing on the 19th. Guess we will see what happens. Now that its been almost 21 months with no luck, I believe I will see if my OB wont have a heart and put me on Clomid. I DO ovulate, so I dont NEED it, but perhaps releasing more than one egg will up my chances. My husband talked sense into me as I was sobbing about getting my tubes tied. Ugh....this just gets SO hard, and SO painful! Im so sorry you are having troubles as well. It never does get any easier.

by **cowgirlchick** » Wed Aug 18, 2010

*sigh* CD 1...AGAIN. Today marks 21 months of TTC baby #3. In those 21 months, I have been pregnant 3 times, and miscarried all three before 8 weeks. In those 21 months I have cried in happiness, and sobbed in sorrow and pain. I never imagined that it would take me 21 months to conceive and carry a healthy, viable pregnancy. I am so disappointed in myself. I have literally broken down and cried several times this last cycle due to feeling like a total failure. This doesnt get any easier. I have been charting for over a year, using a saliva microscope, on 6 different supplements for 5 months now, am eating an all-natural / organic diet, doing my yoga, using PreSeed, battling OPKs, and heck even wearing TWO (soon to be 3) fertility bracelets. There is nothing left for me to do/try! I feel so....hopeless! I did purchase 40 ClearBlue digital OPKs, which will be less of a headache than the strip kind....I hope. If no BFP by the time they run out, then it is time for a ClearBlue Fertility Monitor. I DO still have my OB appointment on the 30th, in which my OB and I will be discussing the option of Clomid. Maybe she will have a heart and put me on it. Heck, I would welcome multiples right now!

To kinda keep myself busy and surrounded by a support system, I opened my own board on babycenter.com...its called "I HATE THE 2WW!" Ive gotten alot of really great women who joined with me on it. Heck, there are even now 5 women who HAVE gotten their BFPs! It is nice to see that women who have the same struggles as I do get their miracles. It makes me smile to hear them so happy and excited. Maybe someday, someone can be happy that I finally got my BFP.....

by **cowgirlchick** » Mon Aug 30, 2010

*sigh* Just when TTC couldnt get any more painful or difficult, my husband has pulled back on the reins of my TTC efforts. He keeps telling me I am "obssessed" and that I just need to "relax and let it happen". Yeah, well thats not the reality of TTC. TTC means I have to temp and chart, check my CP and CM, swallow more pills than Paris Hilton on a good day, look at my spit, pee on OPKs, blah blah blah. So here I am at CD 13. I SHOULD start using my OPKs tomorrow, as I tend to ovulated around CD 16. But, do I actually WANT to!? Im afraid that when I see my LH surge, I wont be able to get the husband to do his part. Hes really been "holding out" on me for some reason. I dont really want to waste the OPKs if I dont have to (mind you, I bought 40 Clear Blue digitals, but still! Those are EXPENSIVE!) Should I actually try this cycle, or just say forget it and try next month? I have an OB appointment on the 7th to discuss Clomid, so maybe Ill just wait around for that instead. *sigh* TTC sucks.

by **cowgirlchick** » Sun Sep 19, 2010

OMG OMG OMG!!! Today is 14 DPO....no sign of AF, but no pregnancy symptoms. I POAS just beacuase...and guess what!? ITS POSITIVE!!! IM PREGNANT!! We tried for 21 months, and have suffered 3 miscarriages in that time frame...hopefully this lil one has a happier ending. I will be contacting my OB tomorrow, as I will be needing progesterone ASAP. I will also be on bedrest for the first 24-26 weeks. YIKES. If I get a healthy baby in the end though.....it will ALL be worth it! If anyone was wondering "what I did" to get my BFP....here's my list:

* Charting DAILY
* Saliva Microscope
* All Natural / Organic Diet
* ProCreation Womens Fertility Supplement
* Vitex
* Maca
* Royal Jelly
* B6 & B12
* Used PreSeed on Fertile Days
* Used Clear Blue Easy Digital OPKs
* Used Fertility Yoga with Monica Morell DVD
* Wore 3 Fertility Bracelets

Heck...SOMETHING was done right.....cus I got my BFP!!! PLEASE....everyone pray for a healthy, viable, SUPER STICKY lil Cricket!!

by **mstross** » Sun Sep 19, 2010

Congratulations Cowgirlchick! I'm so happy to hear you are pregnant. What wonderful news. I wish you and Juju both the best. As I told Juju, thank you for sharing your journey it gives me hope that my day will come too. Congratulations again! Take care of yourself, mstross

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